you know, even though i might be good in running, i don't think that i'm a runner, or a winner.
i don't possess the kind of qualities that a runner has. the kind of fighting spirit.
i don't think i deserve that throphy sitting on my cupboard now.
why can't i apply the techniques of running a real marathon on my studies and my life?
i am not disciplined... neither am i determined.
i don't deserve to be called a runner.

i try very hard to find that RACHEL LEE back. but i can't seem to find it.
it gets harder every day. i'm not a winner. i am no longer proud of myself.
period. full stop.