HELLO:)

this will sound like a very different me

very often we experience things like that

what we wanted very much

we didn't get it

many will be sad

demoralized

but sometimes what u didn't get

is a good thing

sometimes there are even better things down the road

in store for you

now my results are having problems

my CCA also got problems

i don't know if i should stop and and start over again

i reckon it will be difficult to start all over again

futhermore i have worked so hard

both studies and CCA

if i give up...

nope i won't give up

" many of life's failures are people who did not know how close they were to success when they gave up"

so whenever you feel like giving up

rmb this phrase

but its not easy to forget what i went through or suffered

its not easy lettin go

it seems to be the biggest challenge

thought that i have let it go

analyzed it, understand that

i no longer need to dwell over it

and let it go

i relax and it comes right back into mind

determined not to think bout it

and like a evil spirit

it comes right back

find all ways to forget bout it

it still comes right back.

its difficult to forget what i went through

thats my biggest challenge now

i hope things won't turn for the worse

we won PLGS mtach today
great job ppl!
must be cos of my song too:)
let me tell u how to sing!
Before we match...

We're gonna win, we're gonna win, we're gonna win PLMG
we're gonna win PLMGS.
we're going to win this tournament!

After...

we have won them, we have won them, we have won PLMGS
we have won them so we should be happy
we have won PLMG.

haha glad that we won
score was 32-18:)
jia yous B'div

ok sad part
i got 26/50 for my chemistry common test
i noe got a lot ppl lower than me but i also lower than a lot of ppl
i shld be happy cos i passed but its still such a low mark.

Dear Sofia and Chia thong,

pls don't be sad
see u everyday like want to die liao
must hang in there
come to this class must be prepared
yes u can be sad
but u must work harder for the next test.
i believe that we can all do it
since according to 3/7 ppl
we are lifeless creatures and watsoever:)
we shld just act like nerds lor
jia yous sofia and chia thong
some ppl just learn slow
u will get it with determination and perseverance
don't give up now:)

some things happened recently and i wished it wouldn't

failed my eng

first test i failed this year

how great

was quite sad luh

but oso cannot do anything already

3/4 of my class failed i think

ok let me see wat i have to hand up tmr

1. Am Ex 3.2

2. Am Ex 3.2

3. physics

4. log ws

5. chemistry test

jiayous:)

this pic quite funny:)

i feel that i am the worst chairman sia. chairman is to control the class.

critical writing peroid, everyone keeps dead silent. no teacher
me: " eh why u all so quiet? talk more leh! "
erm chairman?
i dun think so.
why ms wong choose me
up till now i still dunno
actually now i hope that my studies can continue to stay at this rate
but i noe its impossible
cos now is only the starting and things are still quite ok
but another thing now i give up already
after that den say bah yu shan.
anyway we are student athletes
student comes first:)
ROY GEE!!!
don't play this type of tricks again.
u will scare us emotionally
still trying to persist in everything that i do.
feel like going to break down soon

no matter what i say now is useless

because its just how well i do at that point in time

so yu shan its possible to give up

being emotionally tortured

I LOST MY PHONE!

ITS THE END OF THE WORLD.

i very sad now sia

no time to blog
have to chiong ss
i want to get A:)
haha
GOOD LUCK!

i feel like giving up you know

all the odds are against me

nothing is going smoothly

expect for something

studies? nope i don't think so

netball? definitely not

but after a long consideration

i realised that i shouldn't

i just need to get it back get the momentum back

i think i can do it

but now i say all these also no use

it just depends on how or what i feel and do

that really matters during that exact point in time

i want to be lame

i want to lame!!!

RACHEL LEE I WANT YOU YO BE ABLE TO DO IT:)

GET IT BACK

okay i wasted my whole day today
if i fail my common test
blame it on the evil class tee
haha
at least we manage to design and is just waiting for the go-ahead
i scared ppl not willing to pay sia
and we came out with the meetings and all
cool
haha

i planned to study physics today
haha
hope my planning comes true.
jia yous i can do it!

ok i got a cbox there now
so ppl it won't be so inconvenient for ppl to post comments:)
haha
i am studying now
i dun wan fail another test already
so damn freaking stress
i hate 3/9?
i love 3/9?
the ans?
thats for me to noe and for u to find out!

haha ran around the class ytd with a plastic bag over my head
so cool
running with brandon
luckily ms wong never take video or photo
if not she say she will put in together with the grad night pics
haha cool i can embarass myself

hey to all 3/9 students out there in PRCS
i know that many of you can't manage the stress that ur facing now
including me
some of us may have already started to regret
why the hell for did i choose 3/9?
9 subjects?
school ending at 4, 5 or even 6 plus everyday makes us all very tired
both physically and mentally
and we still have tons of work and tests
some of us cry when we can't make it to our desired marks for our tests.
cos we expect them to be like our sec 2 grades
but its just that we have to endure
we need more time
i know
some of us are breaking down already
but for our future
we have to hang in there
time will fly past these 2 years
i know it cos when i look at ur blogs
or even at ur faces during lessons
i can see the stressed look
esp during chem
we all must work hard and endure
no matter what we are being called
nerds, nerdballs, etc
whatever
it doesn't matter
cos we are nertified already
we shall endure:)
jia yous everyone
i hope our class stays united.
this does not mean that other classes are not stressed too
i believe that all sec 3s now are finding it diffucult to get used to this.

chemistry common test
think i'm gonna fail
prepared liao
but actually my studies still can cope now
but as for netball
i really feel that i am deproving
though i can be very and overly sensitive,
most of the time its true
and i think that i am not as good as how i was during the december training
i think _ _ _ _ _ also feels that way
she obviously can tell
thats why she's called a _____.

i feel overstretched today
cos we " never stretch properly"
she everytime take us for her venting anger machine
cos ______ never come
also not our fault right?

Ain cheer up
i noe how u feel
its ok just think bout March
we can do it
i believe that we can do it
the sec 3s are getting more united now
though there are only a few pathetic ones
but still we are united:)
we will fight till the end
since we have already suffered so much
just endure:)
and it will be gone very fast
jia yous sec 3 netballers:)
and good luck for b'div second round!

i dont' think you will ever noe how we feel
cos its something like once you have not experienced it
you will never noe the mental torture of it
but i noe that u guys are also very stress
we are certainly not angry with you
but you guys must " ti liang" us when you talk bout it
its really mental torture
i noe urs its physical torture
in a way its both torture
but which one makes the heart feel more hurt?
mental. thats why we always cry
and thats why ur always bleed
lols haha

i am getting more serious day by day

today's match against coral.
we won:)
41-17
good job people:)
i hope this continues
but if this really goes on
the feeling will grow stronger and it may turn to something else

found out that me and eunice belongs to the same species
we both have the same idea of what kind of job we want, resort management
we both lack of confidence in a lot of things
we like to take long bus rides so we can study-.-
we both regret going to top class
we are both very blur.
still got a lot of things
haha lazy say

holy shit
tmr got bio test and chem common test
scared i flunk chem sia
bio still ok lah
i hate missing lessons
but wat can we do?
i can dont go actually
i wan to learn

137 " mo qi" is getting better now
haha
i love 137:)

i didn't do anything wrong you idiot
stop it.

everyone is improvng except me.
i must work harder and focus more.
i can do it!

today nothing much happened
just got back ss test
didn't expect myself to get a score like 19/20
when i don't even listen in ss class at all
ps: i'm not bragging (haha)

i just hope you know that i will treasure every single moment that i have with you.
regardless of what
i hope that u will continue to motivate my life
haha thanks really

i am getting quite irritated by some ppl
really irritated
but some things have improved so far

i have a feeling that i will not do well for my chemistry common test
and for physics
i dun even understand the last question that mr choo was explaining.
gosh i think i need to work harder.
thank you to everyone who motivates me in one way or another

whatever you say.
so wat if i look like a ____________?
you think ur figure very nice meh?
i'm refering to the person who said it
dun worry i am not refering to you.

hais. not again
i have failed time and time again.
this time i feel that is the worst
i made so many mistakes
its just unforgivable
i feel that in one way i am trying my best
but not really too
i want to be the old me
i just can't
with the amount of stress in 3/9 and the pressure to excel in IT
is making me crazy
symptoms:
1) I drew a plant cell on my eraser
2) I talked to chia thong bout her pen that looks like a fractionating column
3) i lame much less compared to last year

conclusion- i am becoming a nerd.

after wat happened today
i realised that ppl do care bout me
unexpected ppl esp.
those ppl that i expected weren't there for me
its ok
they dun really noe anyway
thanks for ur help
hope u will help me all the way to next year
hopefully can work together.
I also realised that i should not be sad for that kind of things.
many more ppl on this earth is much more unfortunate than me.
I am lucky
that i even have a talent
somp people dont even have.
so i will not give up
i may be emotional but so wat?
u dont even care
I will give my best shot.

i still need to do work
got 7 tests this week.
ARRG!!!

wat the hell i shouln't have told you u betrayer
i dunno why u do this to me
but it makes me hate you.








ARRH!!!

four letters.
thats all i can say
i am already so damn tired everyday
and i have to deal with so much problems.

Problem 1:
I noe that you are my ____
and i do respect you.
i am definitely not like the_____ this year or last year
but the kind of attitude that ____ give me is seriously making me think twice
bout whether i am treating ____ too nice.
i really respect ___
is just that i occasionally_______ ___.
The look that you give me is that from what i infer,
as a unhappy look.
i can tell the diff you noe
between last time and nowadays
_____ different now
compared to last time
all the comments that____ said
though i can forget what ____ said
but i will never forget the hurt that___ caused me.
I am just waiting for that day.
i dunno whether to be happy or sad
i used to think i had only one feeling bout that day
but now i have two ans
i feel something whenever i go to_____
but i tell very few ppl
ppl oso dun care bout me anyway.

Problem 2:
I am slacking a lot
compared to last year
i will lose out a lot
though now my results are not bad and still quite pleased
this will not be good in the long run
i need to get back motivation and momentum like last year
to work hard like crazy
its not easy

Problem 3:
a thing that i shouldnt have told anyone.
now its all too late.

i will endure.
i will
and i promise
i dont need anyone's help already.
good luck rachel.
ok i am talking to myself
thats weird

at the white sands library now
suppose to be doing some stupid chem project but ended up watching youtube-.-
haha ok i never study for chem tesr
tmr we have to leave class at 11.45 so hopefully can skip chem test
i have a feeling that we can get into top 4
i this weekend very slack
but last weekend is like holy day for me
was studying like crazy
i found out that i have another talent
I CAN CLIMB TREES!!!
oh ya those who wan to learn how to pick coconuts
can come to my lesson
i teach you!
$20 per person:)
thanks for the support

CHIA THONG SAYS SHE LOVE ME!!!

I made a decision on 12/2/09.
i dunno whether this will affect anything.
i hope it stays this way.
studying now.
got like 5 tests next week.
sian.
some ppl in 3/9 cannot take it liao
i think we all just need to manage our time.
haha zhangmin is so lame
call or msg me during every recess
next mon got match with east view
good luck B'div:)
got buns to support you sure win wan:)
go and study liao
dun wan to start failing tests -.-

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY:)
I actually deleted this blog.
But decided to make it back.
have too many things to say. but i dont think i need such a nice blogskin.
its just for me to blog.

School life really sucks.
honestly, i dont know what i was thinking last year
3/9?
gosh its so super stressful.
its already week 6 coming 7 and i dont think i can cope.
wad time do i slp everyday?
at least 12am.
just look at 3/7.
so fun.
if i had gone to 3/7, not only can i excel in my studies there
i can also hyper a lot a lot like last year.
I miss everyone in 2/9.
I have no time for any enjoyment.
I am just a nerd.
Nvm i shall work hard for my future since i am already labelled as a nerd.

As for netball
its ok. but i feel that i am deproving from last year dec holidays training.
I really hope that next year i can get into the team.
If the same thing like this happens next year
I drop out. I hope i can get top for x country too!
i dont think the teachers are good either.
they teach as if it is a revision topic!
ERR so angry!!!

GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR COMMON TESTS:)